No Doubt.

Doubt.
A quiet little malaise that sits the bottom of our hearts..usually quiet, until sparked and then alighted and then flaming in your body and enveloping your mind. It starts with a question...that is softly whispered at first..and then it grows louder..building distrust, uncertainty, lack of unsureness about that person you are. the life you lead. your reality. And then your ego starts to plummet..and suddenly life becomes a phenomenon of doubt..and you wonder and question and ponder about all you have ever know....
In society, people pick at this self-doubt sore until it becomes a open wound. A tactic i say. It conjours up deep felt insecurutues...that we all try to mask. I wanted to know why people do play on this flaw....So i asked a friend of mine, who was strong in spirit and free of doubt.
She said "Doubt exists in everyone. It's a fact of life. No one is ever 100% sure of themselves, even if they seem to be..they still have a little insecurity in them. ..people just raise their levels of confidence and lower their levels of doubt by putting down others, and playing on anothers self-doubt."
Later that day, i was reading the nytimes, and found an article that seemed to be causing quite a commotion. Some people belived it excellent, and others thought of it as rubbish. I wondered how this affected the writer, did this make her rethink her writing style..question what she had done wrong..doubt her talent..?
or was she resilient like a Foxglove, a buoyant, blooming flower..
I made a vow to myself that day, to eliminiate self-doubt out of my heart, and to keep my spirit strong, powerful and full of light, my new survival strategy to survive in this girl-eat-girl world.

Jump out of doubt.

Oh and i also found this, by sylvia plath, an adventurous and brazen poet.
" And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt."
- Sylvia Plath.